Yes- it has been a whole year since I began this blog. I doubt anyone but my mother read that first post of mine... That person that I was at this time one year ago would not believe she could have met so many wonderful people through blogging. She and I are so different now. It is hard to believe we were the same person.
Looking back on past resolutions, I can easily see which ones I have kept and which were forgotten. For three years I have resolved to be more outgoing and spontaneous. Try new things. Defy my character. And I have. Slowly and in small ways I have stepped outside my comfort zone. I am the happier for it. However, last night, in the very last few minutes of the year, I decided to finally take it off my list.
You see, it is a wonderful thing to push yourself. The leap and landing, or the fall in the end- either way, it is a rush and it is rewarding. But I have been pushing and pushing, and it's hard to see where my boundaries are now. I like that- being a limitless person. But sometimes I miss the comfort of my little box. So this year, I will keep in mind and heart and spirit, a sense of spontaneity, a reminiscence of recklessness, and an ounce of outgoing. More importantly though, I will let myself be me. I will stop feeling guilty when I'd rather be at home reading than out with my friends.
It is a wonderful gift to be able to be alone with oneself. Solitude is a disappearing art. Even by themselves most people are never alone; never away from the radio waves of the many electronics in every hand, ear and eyesight. They have forgotten how to be quiet. How to think. How to be alone.
I haven't. So instead of lamenting my seemingly "anti-social" behavior... This year I will try to embrace it.
We all should. Each year may be an accumulation of all the resolutions you've ever had- the better of the worse for them- but sometimes we must remember that our true nature is not entirely corrupted with bad habits.
This year, resolve to be you.
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What a lovely post! I, too, tend to embrace solitude more often than not. It is so nice to meet a kindred spirit.
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Jo
Elena, this is beautiful. It is like you are holding up a mirror to my own self. I couldn't agree more with you. It is so important to be true to one's inner nature. Be happy, be free, be true.
ReplyDeleteA year can encompass so much can't it? And that you've seen and noticed a change in yourself is wonderful...sometimes it happens and yet we are too "blind" to see.
ReplyDeleteHow you've ended, "resolve to be you" is absolutely beautiful advice. Here's to a bright and beautiful 2010!!
"This year, resolve to be you."
ReplyDeleteWonderful post, Elena. Brava!
This is such a beautiful post!
ReplyDeleteIt's almost like I am reading about myself. How strange & wonderful!
Love from Stina.
Good morning my weence friend and Happy New Year! I loved reading your thoughts about moving outside your box and expanding your boundaries, but even more I loved the part about solitude. I too am a solitary being and can spend days alone pondering life in the quiet. I once spent six months without a radio, tv, clock, and phone. I learned to tell time by the shadows that were cast through my window. The only music I enjoyed was that of the birds singing in the trees. I think those were the most tranquil six months of my life. I hope that this New Year brings many new blessings for you and never feel guilty for being alone...it's where we learn to listen to our own heart ;-).
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Beautiful thoughs !! I too revel in solitude, infact that is where I gather my strength. Most of my friends find it hard to believe that I am infact an introvert (according to Myers Briggs personality testing), but I think people have solitude all mixed up.....it isnt shyness, or an inability to be with and enjoy people. It is simply that you get your strength, gather your thoughts and renew your vision in times of alone-ness. I loved your post, especially in reference to this....much love for the new year - looking forward to more cyber getting to know yous !!!
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